The first step is admitting you need to change..

I have been active my whole life. I love being out doors. I have played sports competitively and been active in the gym. I consider myself "fit and healthy" and most everyone else would too.  For goodness sakes I am a {personal trainer} and make my living off of helping others feel healthy and fit. I am not perfect though. I grew up active with sports and playing out side. I did not however grow up eating veggies and fruits more than Little Debbie's. Nothing was wrong with that in my mind due to how physically active I was. As I get older and my body changes I see that I need to change mentally too.  Luckily these habits did not follow to a great extent.  Now being married I am able to dictate what my home purchases as groceries. I get to be the one who swipes my card for Little Debbies or Little Carrots. It is my choice!  Being a personal trainer I am aware of what I consume very much so, but often I allow myself to say "well I am a {trainer} I am NOT a nutritionist... " as I look back this is EMBARRASSING! 

I want to be an inspiration to others not an additional excuse. I train like crazy in the gym because I am addicted and I love it. Why can I not show my body how grateful I am by feeding it what it needs not what it "wants"? 

This thought has really bothered me. My husband and I are preparing to start a family in the next few years. What kind of home am I preparing for my children to live in (my body for the 9 months and our physical home).  I think so often as women we get consumed with eating less trying to cut calories and corners in order to get the next size down. That they neglect what HEALTHY  really means. Healthy does not mean a certain dress size or an amount on the scale. It is the way you FEEL day to day.   

I have been a trainer and seen such great results from my clients and I am able to share in their successes. What am I challenging of myself? It is easy for me to got to the gym 5-6 days a week, it is easy to wake up at 5am to start my day helping clients, and it is easy to push myself when I have fallen short in the gym. So how am I challenging myself to be better or have I hit a plateau? Why is it so hard for me when it comes to food? 

(MY BIGGEST OFFENSE IS EATING OFTEN ENOUGH AND PROPER PORTIONS)

 I love food and that is why part of my blog is dedicated to "baking cakes" But I have found it is time for me to live the other half of living healthy to a fuller extent. No this does not mean I am going RAW, Vegan, Paleo, cutting food groups from my diet, or never eating chocolate again. It just means I want to become more conscientious of what I put in my mouth and when.  

I am not "fat" or "overweight" I have no desire in losing weight. I do not eat out often and I dislike fast food (except Chick-fil-a). By America's standards I eat ["healthy."] Well I think those standards are way to low. I want to nourish my body and prepare a healthy example for my family. I do not care what size I am I care how my body FEELS and what my body is capable of doing! 

I have rambled on here now for a while and I can guarantee I have lost a few readers but I do not mind. This is for myself and I know if I post about wanting to change publicly and wanting to push through.  I will have myself and my followers to keep me accountable. 

What am I going to be accountable for?

For the next 4 weeks I want to change the way my body feels through food. (Hopefully setting a great foundation to continue) I am tired of being tired, I am tired of my stomach being nauseous, and I am tired of not being the best I can be for myself. I deserve better from myself and my workouts deserve more natural energy. I am 21 years old and if I do not set forth a better eating plan now.... when I get older I will not be able to out train my "poor" eating. I will try and keep you posted with my meals and snacks maybe even my work outs and see how it goes.